alone

Nowadays people don’t have proper religion anymore. well, not proper religion in this country anyway. I mean Christianity doesn’t really exist in a big way here, the current generation never really had it to be honest. People in Ireland used to have it, the real religion not the one people have here mainly just some dressing up boxes and some cardigans with holes at elbows, everybody meet up have some ginger-nuts, sing a few hums and then go home have a nice wank. Ireland had the real religion, the thing that makes you feel bad the moment you awake, with God squatting at end of your bed with his fist pressed in between your eyes, going “Wake up, you worthless shit bag!” That’s how it felt in real religion.

The whole point of television is to have people get addicted to, instead of depressed by their own lives, just in terms of distraction. I didn't know that until give up smoking and instantly hooked with TV. It revealed to me how exposed I was, cause the cigarette is a prop, something you depend upon. you putting it in your mouth all the time, it’s like a screen against the world, and so does television.

Look your ego function is at its best when you are alone. Well, actually, not when you alone, by yourself, it doesn't functioning at all, but only when you're alone with somebody else, as they try to invade your loneliness by talking to you. You know, when you argue with somebody who you live with, somebody who is lucky enough live with you. As soon as they give you any gibberish, that's the moment when your ego function kick into it’s zone.

When you reach certain age, you'll somehow agree that certainly you deserve respect from younger people. But they don't even aware you're there, let along decide whether they should respect you or not, cause they are too fucking busy with machines, gadgets, internet, and so on.

Young people out there don't know how to be alone anymore. Cause when they're alone, they mess around a computer. The other day, I said to my nephew, “What you doing Saturday night?" he went "Oh, I'm downloading a picture of a squid." "Why?!" "Well, I didn't have one before.” And when young people talking to you, they mess around a phone. "What is this?" "Oh, it's just an app." "OK, what does it do?" "It measures the distance between me and sadness." "What is wrong with you?" "Here's different one, I'm doing different one now." "What does that one do then?" "Oh, it can tell me the tipping point of your patience."