pressure

I am a man! either that or a woman who's really let herself go. Look It's not easy be a man, for example, I had to get dressed today, and there’s loads other pressures. Man get very hard-time from female media, like these woman's magazines, they always doing these surveys, in between the ads of alligator bag, purse, Chanel, Louis Vuitton... they put these fucking surveys, "What you want for a man?" And all women inevitably come up with similar kind of thing, like "Oh, I don't know, oh just some kind of physical, psychical, intellectual melding really, where you can get that oceanic feeling after 18 years of children bearing and continual exploration of existing sexual relationship is still possible. That’d be OK."

Of course you do have to make some concessions as you getting older. I mean, I am a vegetarian, for instance. But... I'm not a hardcore. Cause you know... I eat a lot of meat. But that's only because I like the taste. So morally I win as far as I’m concerned. And I don't messing around like some people just eat fish or be a vegan totally cut everything out. I... I do things with faces. OK. That's all I eat. Just give me the face, the pig face, fish face, or what have you, cut them off, throw the rest away, flash fry the face, I'd like to interact my food, you always win the staring competition if you first eat the eyes.

I didn't meant to make any generalisation about women and men, all I'm saying is that women have to make themselves beautiful for men. Because men are the ones who're going on about female beauty all the time. It's only possible a man who you would heard him saying "Oh, I miss Nancy, she has such dusky insteps. Her knees were like porpoises’ heads and her eyes were like lapis lazuli flash light thrown into little dishes of Utterly Butterly, you could almost hear her breasts while she's walking behind you, she was such an extraordinary woman." You don't get women banging on in this manner about male beauty, you don't hear women say "Oh, I miss Felix so much, he's got such beautiful balls!" We call ourselves liberal democracy and there's still no platform in this society for the appreciation of scrotal beauty.

So there's lots of pressure. Lot of pressure on the young man to say something snappy, seductive, and charming to a young woman in the dance hall, or disco, or whatever they called these days. You know those places, where you walk in, the music can bleed your ear in just about three seconds.

These are the fashions that comes and go, but they put pressures on you to stay involved with what's happening, what's now, what's relevant, what's hip. I sometime felt you're not even allowed to be old anymore. That's the truth, look at the Media, everything is all about sex. Sexy gorgeous, sexy outfits, sexy dentures, sexy walking frames... Even 85 means nothing, you can get sexy makeups and yoga pants, of course it's gonna work, come on, let's go baby.

When you approach middle aged man, you'll become a kind of soft, comfortable guy with fears. By some definition not even a man anymore, you know, in the ways that medias and films defined for us. So what will happen is that you get yourself addicted to violent movies, like Matt Damon, Jason Stathan and so on, cause you've got find a way to outsource your masculinity.