technology

Because you see, most modern technology doesn't work. It's supposed to free you, but it's a terrible trap, of course. All those smartphones, everybody has one now, I have one, they’re fucking awful, completely ruined appropriate human communication. You know people ring you up and say "Hi, it's me. I'm in the bath!" and you think, "Well, why the fuck you calling me from a bath tub, I've just running milk in the house, and you are still an asshole, I'd hope you drown." but you say "Hello! haven't heard you for while"

I find it hard to believe anything nowadays, even science. I mean I believed in science but It's not gonna give you any comfort though, does it? Majority of people who do believe in science, quite often and quite lot of them, would just tend to laugh at other people who have a religious faith. But like most of people, I don't really understand any science. I just believed it. So that's no difference to having a religious faith, as far as I can work out, is there?

I get freaked out by things like invoice and bills. I got loads of bills to deal with the other day. Other people probably pretty good at dealing with them but I've alway get frightened by things like that. Normally, the first invoice is always very gentle. The kind of expression sort of saying "Err, we think, maybe, perhaps you own us some money, just checking... We are not really sure, and we are sorry to mention about it. And would do you like some tea?" And the second one the words be a bit firmer, it goes like "Yes, you do own us some money, don’t you? Yes, of course you do. Give it back to us now, please." And then the third one they just forgot everything, straight away going "Jail! You're going to jail! You gonna fucking stay in a jail! We don't want the fucking money now! We just want see you in a jail get bum raped by other fuckers." That's why I've always tend to be nervous by bills.

When you reach certain age, you'll somehow agree that certainly you deserve respect from younger people. But they don't even aware you're there, let along decide whether they should respect you or not, cause they are too fucking busy with machines, gadgets, internet, and so on.

Young people out there don't know how to be alone anymore. Cause when they're alone, they mess around a computer. The other day, I said to my nephew, “What you doing Saturday night?" he went "Oh, I'm downloading a picture of a squid." "Why?!" "Well, I didn't have one before.” And when young people talking to you, they mess around a phone. "What is this?" "Oh, it's just an app." "OK, what does it do?" "It measures the distance between me and sadness." "What is wrong with you?" "Here's different one, I'm doing different one now." "What does that one do then?" "Oh, it can tell me the tipping point of your patience."